Releasing the Karmic Shadows

There was an experience that I partook to learn and understand life at a deeper level. To experience more variety and to see what light is held in certain practices. I took on the acts of a daily Muslim prayer practice.

This practice is an in depth process. Of ritual washing 3x over private parts, hands, face, mouth, nose, hair, and feet then covering the body for woman, covering arms, legs, & hair ...prior to coming to the mat to pray.

There are set words for the prayer process at each specific time. Bowing and speaking in arabic, I learned. I did these prayers daily 3 times for 3 months. I wanted to really jump I'm to experience a glimpse of another culture and what could be revealed here.

One particular thing that stood out was reciting Astaftigir Allah Alezeem... ..which means asking Almighty God for forgiveness..during a period of sitting on knees with one foot turned out..

I felt much torment and discord on my spirit still at this period of my life.. and I began to feel the relief that these prayers brought..

despite the long & arduous, dedicated process that was required..

I began to think about this asking for forgiveness that was required in every prayer ... I wondered why we had to feel condemned by God... I can say I felt a resistance to this but at the same time I remembered a lesson I had learned about layers of depression when I was early in recovery begging for relief and asking why I had to feel such thick layers of darkness. .

I began thinking about what this really could mean on a multidimensional level ... and through past lives... and I realized how much we do not know of our trespasses from other lifetimes.

I looked at the contexts of these practices in the incarnations of lives which saw much suffering..possible karmic reimbursement..suffering far greater than I know in this life.. and to see this practice designated for certain people in certain incarnations... and I realized the multidimensional surrendering, acknowledgeding of wrongs, and asking of the Spirit for release from karmic nets that still had hung over me at that time in my life.

It finally made sense at a greater level and was a productive solution to releasing these layers. A prescribed antidote for resolving.

And slowly... month after month...even after I ceased this practice... these layers of torment were slowly relieved.

And day by day face to the floor those seeds grew roots.

To withstand with understanding.

To rise from the misery And fly into freedom

And the breaking of the bonds of karmic shadows that still loomed & drapped our hearts.